tightfisted unprepared

8 represents something meaningful to me. well, if we remember Kim De Los Santos and Dino Guevarra. ehem. hehehe.

the date is meaningful to me because Im looking forward for that much-awaited day of my life. i do not have the ample time to see him every minute that i wanna see him. twice a month is not always. so, i guess it’s just right to be excited.

nyahah.

how can you be so sure about what i feel?

now you’re starting to challenge me. ill play with it.

you still don’t know me that much.

there are times when nobody has got a consideration for you. wake you up in the middle of your much-needed sleep and tell you things you don’t have any plans to hear. your trusted person turns out to be not so trustworthy anymore and kick you off your butt. you wake up shivering not because of the cold that gets inside your stomach and affects your whole system but because of the thought that you’re gonna end up dead if you won’t perform well. you’re too sleepy to answer questions with finesse and grace thinking that you are doing it right. and somebody warns you to come and kill you if you mumble the wrong keyword. and you say, “sure, come, you can kill me” without any hesitation or fear that you’re sure gonna end up killed and murdered to pieces.

if all of these will happen, i want to stay away from the world. stay in my seat and just let the globe spin on its own and just leave me sitting there.

leave me alone.

thank God I did not feel the guilt that should be felt.

thank God I smiled after it, and even laughed.

thank God I knew and I felt that I am not doing the same mistake over and over again.

thank God for realizing that I am a grown-up now and I can stand by myself.

thank God for giving you back to me. or for getting us back together.

thank God for giving us the chance but never gave the responsibility yet, which we know we can’t tackle successfully at this kind of time.

thank God,  unwanted elements don’t know yet. And i hope won’t know about us until you can make life worth-living for the both of us.

and finally, thank God for you. Who still remembers to give me those greatly appreciated three-long-stems,  who wakes up until 7am just to catch up with me and never gets tired of replying to my spoiled SMSes. Thank you for showing those proofs of loving me.

i’ll wear black.atut!…at least we celebrated it ahead of time…and that celebration will be my most cherished one…Sorry, i forgot to make and bring my promise…but ill make sure to give to you one on our next date…i became satisfied…you said it when i least expect it…i hope you cope with the promises we had…ill go after…thanks for this and ilabyu…hehehe