Yep, it’s a line from the first book of Twilight. I became interested with the book when I saw the trailer of the movie starring Robert Pattinson ( Cedric Diggory in Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire). And yes, I immediately made it as my shoutout in Friendster, the line. I kind of connected and became obsessed with the line because that’s what I feel to the man who has been my childhood dream.
And that’s what I wanna tell him, eversince. I just got out of focus and then I found him in the latter part. Thank God.
Mostly, I dream about being with him forever. That’s just so romantic I wanna cry.
Being in a long distance relationship is much harder than what i thought it was. Very hard, very very hard. You’ll wake up in a midnight thinking about your boyfriend who used to be watching you sleep. Longing for someone who also loves you but just cannot get nearer brings more pain than longing for someone who doesn’t even know you exist.
I am hopeful i’d surpass this kind of thing as years will come. I have to get used to this style because I’ll be tying the knot with somebody who is always out of the country and just stays here for 2-3 months. I MUST get used to it.
To be honest, I am still praying for myself to remain loyal to the man I LOVE. Temptations just come and go. We never know when it will hit you straight on the face and leave you lie flat on the ground. Remembering an ex-boyfriend is never an exception. As what I have previously stated in this blog, I was madly inlove with him.
Is it my past which haunts me, or is it just me being nostalgic about the things and feelings that have affected me in one way or another? I once rode a jeepney going home and smelled something familiar. My ex-boyfriend’s cologne. Toinks! Hahahahah! I thought to myself, I should not be entertaining things like that and should have kept on thinking about my current boyfriend’s Oxygen Cologne. Heheheh.
