she is still asking if you’re still used to be doing what you’ve been doing when we were still together.
of course, I had to think of a lie, and said “no”.
i looked directly to her eyes. she looked to mine. and i thought, ’she is still not convinced i am telling the truth. because i am really not’.
she will always tell me the same stories she’s been telling from the moment my footsteps stepped in that home. “he has been doing what he’s used to do. he is not worth your love. he is nonsense. no future. nothing at all.”
inside me, i am telling myself, “you have to believe her. she is telling the truth.”
what i don’t like, she keeps on putting you down even though she knows that I still love you. I still value you. I still believe in what you’re saying that you are promising will save your future.
i don’t know what Ill be doing in the end if my intuitions will not direct me to the proper place. Might REGRET this for all of my life.
